sua_lay

Oct. 17th, 2002

Been thinking about religion all night. Got the newest Seita in the mail yesterday, and took it to work with me.

It's actually the ages old question of paganism that has been bugging me lately. Paganism as a word is kinda anti-hierarchical. I'm not talking about coven hierarchy here, but about the whole 'let's be sure we all believe in the same thing' -kinda one. Us pagans follow many paths, which may or may not cross with others. We have no Highest of the High Priestesses or Priests. No universal Book of Wisdoms or Shadows.

Most of the Christians with whom I've had talks about religion seem to think paganism is somehow inferior because of this. I on the other hand think it's truly a blessing. Freedom and all.

Used to infuriate me in my teens. Like all teens, I wanted to be taken seriously. That was before I realized we're all funny, and laughing doesn't get you an aneurism like constant gritting of teeth probably will.

Still, it annoys me at times. Like now.

It'll be Samhain in two weeks. Been thinking about that lately. Always do. Saku died in October, so this time of the year always makes me think about death. More so this year. My grandmother died on Beltane this year. She's been gone for six months, and I still find it hard to believe. Am not grieving anymore, just feel weird. She's happy now, I think, finally back with granddad, nagging about his unsavory manners. :D

Wish I could sing right now. Calms me always, makes me feel more at peace. Like walking in the forest does. Well, not when it's freeing out there and snowing hard. Fortunately I brought some Clannad CDs here with me, so I can listen to them and feel good. Funny, even though their singer, Maire Brennan is a devout Christian with religious solo albums, I always think of Clannad's music as religious to me. Must be because of the Robin of Sherwood -thing.

Oh well....

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Clannad: White Fool

Watched the first Harry Potter movie this morning. Was sleepy at work, and staring at the flickering light on telly help me stay awake.

Now I'm troubled. First of all, Wax's comment of them totally blowing Remus and Sirius is scaring me. The fact that Harry's parents looked kinda... old helps. They looked like they were about 35 when they died. That means the other Marauders are around 50 for crying out loud. Well, then again Hagrid's supposed to be around 70, so...

Also, the longer I watched the movie, the more I started to feel for the Slytherins. The school system is unfair. Harry freakin' Potter gets privileges, and he's the headmaster's pet. Poor Malfoy and his goons. :D

On a brighter and even more freaky note, I now have a thing (as if I didn't have one before) for Alan Rickman. And Snape too. Also, thought Oliver Wood was really cute and sexy, and considering the fact he was a teen and I am a youth worker, that just sucks. Heh. Or he could suck Snape. Oh Gods. I'm so going to be a goat in my next incarnation.

Watching the newest Angel right now. I'm not sure if I like to watch Angel anymore. I kinda hate most of the characters, and miss the ones who have left. Also, being a Rabid Briton FanGirl (RBFG???), I hate the way Wes is treated. Oh well. I'll put my faith in Joss. He'll see it through somehow.

On a more personal note, did some loitering with Mia today. Had fun. Called to a dozen frends (there goes the phone bill) and sent lots of email. I like the days after nightshifts. After I sleep really late, I can almost imagine I have a day off.

Of course the fact that I feel nauseous and will probably have to run to the toilet in about five seconds is not a good thing. sigh

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: the sound of me worshipping the porceline god.